2019 Update

I thought that this is my yearly diary since I realised I merely wrote one blog a year.  And as I read lucedale's blog about Creative block, I could construe this as one of it. But life is changing, and that is the most striking issues I should talking about. 2018 to 2019. Some goods and bads happened.

Time goes by, this February, I met my childhood mate  and started to date. We've already dated before on 2013, but unfortunately it wont get on. Cause I had to go to Germany and we both had already been in relationship. This January we met and talked each other in Burger King as an old friend, no more than asked how's life goes on. A month by, we frequently met each other, until we realised that we'd been falling in love 😃💓. And still, I cant believe it works until now, even our family have been trying to make it right. Hm, I think they had better accept it or they would get nothing, but hurt.

I think, I'll tell my-future-self, why I choose Jaka as my life partner, and I'll make some bullets to make it easy to re-read.

• Jaka loves nindy (maybe) more than nindy does. We argued lot of boys or girls we met in our life. I teased him a lot, if he got along with another girls or about his exes and triggered his emotion-his anger. And it always ends up with: his willing to block his friend. Even I always tried to stop it, he still did it tho. I'd told him how childish he was, and he just like "I just want to keep things right and wont hurt you more". He's childish, yeah, he is ❤❤
• Jaka protects nindy like nobody does. Dont know what makes him protects me like nobody does. Maybe because of his jealousy, or he just worries. He always calls and makes sure I'm okay when I'm off to somewhere.
• Jaka surprises nindy a lot,  even it often ended up fail, but He's still the sweetest tho. We've been misscommunication once I would buy a pen tab. I bought pen tab as I had enough money and unexpectedly Jaka had bought me too. And surprisingly it was from same marketplace and even same online shop! Jaka also often surprises me with his sudden presence. He used to call me and said "Aku di Malang" when I was still in pre-clinic. I dont expect much, but he's a God's gift :)
• Jaka takes care of me like nobody does. I just remember, when he drove off to Malang as I said that I had lymphadenitis and would make an appoinment with doctor right after he went back home from Pier. I was shocked and wont believe that he could be that care. Sometimes I just wonder, am I deserve for him? like really?? 

  

  When he drove off to Malang right after went back from work ❤

Those are the main reasons why I'll stand for this relationship. Nobody is perfect but he will be better than anyone. Sometimes he could be so hard, but without him, everything came up worst. 

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Nindy, I hope this blog can hold you from being out of control.